It is now soon 13 months since I made a change in the ingredients of my diet. The change I can almost not believe possible myself.
Before summer I believe I will be down to where I would like to be. But the time is not important. Just knowing what I do is working and that every day I get a little closer to what should be my ideal weight according to my height.
For myself I can see I am different outwardly over the years and it is not something I have been happy about, but still my goal in the struggles of life has first and foremost been to keep my integrity as a person and on the inside, to be true to myself there and what I believe in and who I want to be. My first priority has been to recognize myself there and not loose who I am and who I believe in I want to be. And this has been a struggle with all the trials life has offered.
If you look at these portrait pictures look at the first one and the one from december 2006 and I will tell you a little clue to what helped me even take a hold of my physical change last year.
A person I have not seen or heard from in 33 years contacted me by email. This person saw me last time as a teenager of 15 years old as I am in the first picture. The person wrote: I have been searching for you for 33 years and I am so happy I found you and to see you have not changed at all. You are the same (and than there was a description how this person saw I was the same now as back than). And than the person told me that it was on my english website www.starkids.cc I was found. And what is to be found there: Yes, this horrible picture from december 2006. It is not possible to see it is the same person to even myself. And it is not a picture I am proud to present to anybody. But this person did not talk about the outward, but remembered how I was as a teenager and had read what I had been doing over my life and had studied my homepage and even read a speech I held that I had posted on my website. And this person writes how wonderful it is to see I had not changed at all! To me that was such an incredible message in my life and it was life altering in many ways at that exact point in my life.
A person I have not seen or heard from in 33 years contacted me by email. This person saw me last time as a teenager of 15 years old as I am in the first picture. The person wrote: I have been searching for you for 33 years and I am so happy I found you and to see you have not changed at all. You are the same (and than there was a description how this person saw I was the same now as back than). And than the person told me that it was on my english website www.starkids.cc I was found. And what is to be found there: Yes, this horrible picture from december 2006. It is not possible to see it is the same person to even myself. And it is not a picture I am proud to present to anybody. But this person did not talk about the outward, but remembered how I was as a teenager and had read what I had been doing over my life and had studied my homepage and even read a speech I held that I had posted on my website. And this person writes how wonderful it is to see I had not changed at all! To me that was such an incredible message in my life and it was life altering in many ways at that exact point in my life.
It helped me in the time after to start to see who I was both on the inside and the outside. And one day I just had the decision in my heart to get back to who I had been even on the outside. Even though and older version of myself. And as I started I have not left that determination one day. And what I believed impossible or at least would take years to accomplish, has as a matter of fact come to reality within a year.
Every day I am continuing and doing just what I have been doing this past year. And I now trust the change will continue. So I don´t think much about it. Just make sure I eat right every day.
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